
I can't run away
I'm telling you I can't run away
From what I am feeling
Feeling baby I can't run away
I think I'm gonna stay and I'm gonna love you
Until I can't love you no more
Now here is where my head kicks in and confuses me telling me what a fool I am. My history with love hasn't been the best and I mean though the most recent was the worse it wasn't the first time I loved someone. I came into this world holding on to someone I loved, who loved me for me the only one that loved me besides Jace. What does this mean to him? Collin died in that alleyway just as I should have! I'm not supposed to do this! I told myself I wouldn't do this, I promised myself. I mean a Volturi guard? I was raised to hide from the law not embrace it. If they had the first idea of how I acted when I was made, no idea of rules I was supposed to be obeying. How would he feel if he knew how I acted? How would his father feel? Would he turn his head down as they judged me and I was sentenced to die for my newborn crimes? You won't hear me asking him. He looks at me like I'm everything when I'm nothing. I don't understand how I can be so special to him. And will I just sit in a house day in and out till we all disappear. Will I be considered Volturi? Can I stop performing music all over the world? I can do that... yeah I can do that no one can take music away from me whether it be performing to the world or the mirror I can be satisfied with either. But stay still? I know I always wanted to just settle down but can I settle down? I hate anything permanent any kind of real commitment, can I just stay? I know I can't leave him right now, he seems to need me just as much as I need him. I feel like I'm sucking the happiness right out of him like a drug. Being emotionally handicapped doesn't help either, I can't express one damn word effectively when I want to. He probably thinks I'm a silly giggling crazy fool of a girl, hmph I sure do.
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